• pigduck
• Feb 7,2006
• In: Spiritual Affairs

God is in control

” The Tabernacle was set up, and on that day the cloud covered it. Then from evening until morning the cloud over the Tabernacle appeared to be a pillar of fire. This was the regular pattern–at night the cloud changed to the appearance of fire. When the cloud lifted from over the sacred tent, the people of Israel followed it. And wherever the cloud settled, the people of Israel camped. In this way, they traveled at the LORD’s command and stopped wherever he told them to. Then they remained where they were as long as the cloud stayed over the Tabernacle. If the cloud remained over the Tabernacle for a long time, the Israelites stayed for a long time, just as the LORD commanded. Sometimes the cloud would stay over the Tabernacle for only a few days, so the people would stay for only a few days. Then at the LORD’s command they would break camp. Sometimes the cloud stayed only overnight and moved on the next morning. But day or night, when the cloud lifted, the people broke camp and followed. Whether the cloud stayed above the Tabernacle for two days, a month, or a year, the people of Israel stayed in camp and did not move on. But as soon as it lifted, they broke camp and moved on. So they camped or traveled at the LORD’s command, and they did whatever the LORD told them through Moses.” - Numbers 9:15-23

I wanted my title to read… God is in control if we want Him to be… in my mind, that would be correct however it makes us sound as if we have so much power, right? To control God? But we don’t. It’s all this free will that we are granted some times… God doesn’t push things down our throats… it’s whether we want to accept Him or not. When is the right time to allow God to speak to us? We don’t know timing but God does.

It is 3:22am and I am rather frazzled over many things.

I went out for dinner with Adelyn today. At Chili’s. A lot of my faults surfaced but on the whole, I was able to tell Adelyn everything… and beforehand, I had felt afraid and uncertain but after the dinner, I knew God was in control… He always was… He told me time and time again and still I did not believe… however, I answered my own question tonight and it is only the Holy Spirit who can do that… not by my own might for I know I have none. I was afraid that maybe God wasn’t listening… I was afraid that nothing was happening but at the end of the conversation, I realised everything was in place… everything that I had prayed about was in place and set to happen but when? I don’t know… only God knows…. the tables have been set… now to wait for our Master to orchestrate… I am sure He is doing it now… I want to be an instrument in His plans and I am inadequately equipped. I know that too so I am asking God for help in many areas… I am asking God for forgiveness in so many areas… I am nothing without Christ… Jesus is the answer! He is the truth… the life, the way! He is our Saviour, our mighty fortress in the time of need… he is our shield… our shelter… our comforter. He is ALIVE! ALIVE! ALIVE! I believe it all… sure I have been finding it hard to trust God…

But trust … is the integral ingredient we all need… to trust the Lord… trust and to obey Him… like the Israelites… only then, will we find our way out of the wilderness… to be led by God is comforting… to follow Him assures us of our future… we don’t worry then… we follow God.

“…I do believe, help me with my unbelief!” - Mark 9:24

It surprises me time and time again how the bible has so many things that we can relate to. We forget that… we think it’s just a book but that’s what makes it so amazingly alive… we go through doubt, through times of guilt, through times of despair and only God can draw us out of it… only God can give us healing… because HE is our healer, HE is our Physician… He is the Healer of all Healers…. HE knows us inside out… He is our Creator… why do we turn to others … when the Creator is there? Why are we looking to the wind, moon and earth for answers when we should look to our Creator, the one who made everything? GOD ! YOU ARE IN CONTROL! LORD YOU ARE IN CONTROL….

I am reaffirming what I believe… I had a really tough time tonight… listening to opinions, getting upset, feeling inadequate, feeling sidelined…. I had time to have selfish thoughts… I had time to think about myself and I feel terrible about it… but the Lord knows everything… and some times even when we don’t turn to Him, He comes to our rescue … prodding us the right way…

I want God to be the answer… I want us to proclaim that it is only through Christ that we are able to accomplish everything… I want God to reign supreme in our lives… He is the one that created us… He knows us best… He knows who we are… what we are capable of… He knows … so why aren’t we turning to Him? WHY?! Now is the time to turn back to him…. Now is the time to surrender…. to die to self but to live in Christ… hehe… a prayer to keep us up and running… to keep our eyes on Jesus only… nothing else…. God is in control. Amen…