• pigduck
• Feb 18,2006
• In: Spiritual Affairs

Praises to God

Friday, 17 February 2006 

Today was rather eventful.

Someone irked me the entire day today. Enough said. Bah.

Well, I spent the better part of my morning and lunch time at the hospital… man, that hospital is like fast turnover. Now, I understand why a degree in Hospital Administration is needed. Seriously, they had lines everywhere and so much lining up and waiting. Crazy. I thought hospitals were supposed to be stress-free zones. All the waiting, getting a number to collect your this and that, it’s rather inconvenient. Patients will definitely need someone to go with them to the hospital. The paperwork is insane.

So, we spent our time walking up and down and waiting.

The 1st doctor told us that the medicine will take some time to work and we shouldn’t worry so much. It’s a slow and long treatment so we shouldn’t expect the drug to work after just a week.

The 2nd doctor said my dad would need to be admitted tomorrow. My dad’s blood count dropped further this time around but the good thing is that we now know why. It’s because of the virus that he’s caught. Right now, the primary concern is to fight the virus and to heal him of that. My dad will just need to go for supportive treatment in the mean time for his blood.

Compared to last week, when we were told my dad had lung cancer and then miraculously he didn’t … this week, in my opinion, wasn’t too bad. Sure, my dad had a tough week with all the side effects from the drugs he’s been taking, and I think we’ve gone through the pain with him but still…thank God it wasn’t lung cancer!

Somehow, I’ve forgotten how to worry… weird, huh? I’m not extremely scared or worried like I was two weeks or three weeks ago. Maybe after last week’s scare, nothing can unfaze me right now. These days, I’m just annoyed at one or two people for picking on me constantly.

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Interestingly, my dad’s sisters set up a prayer meeting today with 2 South Korean pastors who came to the house. They met up with my dad and one of them spoke to him in Mandarin and the other one spoke Korean but the Mandarin speaker interpreted.

From my understanding, they were talking about spiritual warfares and how demons and things can attack us. So before they prayed, they brought out plastic bags in case my dad threw up… but he didn’t.

Saturday, 18 February 2006

I stopped midway last night so I’ll just continue…

During the whole time, the pastor was speaking in Mandarin, I just sat there, unsure of what to do so I prayed. It struck me then how much God loves my dad… I mean, it’s like by divine plan that my dad had to hear from these pastors from South Korea. I never did ask my dad what the pastors spoke about after but all I know is that in my heart, it was the things that the Holy Spirit had told me about as well… about spiritual warfares, encouragement from God and I think that God is in control… When I was praying then, I really felt that God really loved my dad… for giving him sisters who got hold of these South Korean pastors for him… and also the fact that God was still answering my prayers after a week is a real blessing.

What more after yesterday… my dad was upset that his blood count had dropped and he was going into his sad mode again, with all the questions of why and how… as a family, all we can do is support him … we can’t answer him… I wish we could tell him how he got his virus but we don’t know… all we know now is that we’ve got to mend him… and the truth is, the pastors came at the right time… right when my dad was feeling like he was… that’s why I can say it’s by divine appointment that they came to speak to my dad… what more in Mandarin, the language that I think my dad understands more… I think Mandarin is truly a beautiful language and listening to the pastor yesterday, even I felt reassured. My dad as well, felt stronger and not as weak. I could tell he felt different.

Then some of us spoilt the moment but … I shan’t mention names… I think at times like this, we don’t need to prove ourselves to be more righteous or knowledgeable. We don’t need that now… more importantly, it’s to remember that God is in control and not return to our faith-less state less than 15 minutes after having just heard from God. But then again, who can blame people like these? Even in the bible, we see this happening.

To believe and to have faith is integral to receiving the strength from God. If we don’t have faith, then we won’t be able to see God work and even when He does, we wouldn’t recognise His efforts.

I realised as well that the people that I thought needed the faith to believe actually had the faith to believe but those who pretended to have the faith, actually didn’t really have it all together. Hmm… if that makes sense.

While praying yesterday during the prayer meeting, I really felt this awesome-ness in my spirit ‘cos God was still looking after us and not leaving us alone. At least He’s not silent… He’s there in our faces… with the pastors, the prayers, etc. etc…Isn’t that precious? I think it’s interesting that all these things arose when I asked God to help ‘cos I felt hopeless and when I thought nothing could ever change the situation, God turned it around and is working His miracles… He put people in our paths, he even brought them to our door step… I can’t explain it. It’s just wow… some times, you don’t need people to tell you they love you but you can feel it from their actions… that’s what I feel from God … His love for us…

I wish I could detail out how I felt yesterday during the time that I was praying for my dad and for the prayer meeting… all I could sense was “God loves my dad”… the past week has shown me that God loves my dad… these pastors coming was one of them, all the way from South Korea too… the love from my dad’s brothers and sisters have been pretty amazing too. The encouragement they’ve been trying to give my dad has been pretty amazing and words that I had thought about but couldn’t say, my uncles and aunties have said… the Holy Spirit is affecting them to say things that I thought only I thought… maybe that’s why I feel God’s presence … I am seeing mountains being moved…

My expression is limited.