• pigduck
• Apr 22,2006
• In: Rants

What a day…. some thoughts…

It’s the Saturday. I have never wanted a weekend to pass by quickly but this weekend, yes, I can’t wait for it to be over.

I was at training from 9:30 to about 5pm today. The crazy thing was that it was meant to be a Powerpoint Presentation skills training but then he rattled on about Marketing and he was asking so many questions…about our company… being nosey I guess… who knows… but he wanted to talk a bit about Marketing and stuff as well and he doesn’t know much about his brands to be honest. He knows a bit but he was commenting on Astro and several other global brands and he had very skewed views. I was sitting there among the people and I realised that I actually know a lot more general knowledge stuff or stuff that relate to Marketing than some of the people there… interestingly but then again they aren’t all into Marketing… I’m not boasting but it’s interesting… like Astro and their logo, Pepsi and their strategy but then again, he’s supporting his ideas and points. Tomorrow is going to be a gross day… more interaction. I believe his thoughts are not statistically/research based but more word of mouth… in regards to Astro anyway… or his perceptions of it. Quite wrong in my opinion but he’s entitled to his views.

Yesterday was an alright day. I was at work and I actually did quite a fair bit yesterday. Talked to someone about serving in church and it got me thinking about it. It started the night before at the mamak after bible study and he just asked me about it further… I was thinking… about it and I actually do feel more prepared to do it. But then again, let’s see what God says. In these matters, I always think God will say, “yes, go serve.” I remember once someone said, “If we all relied on our feelings, nobody would be serving…” Oh well, maybe I’m just selfish. I acknowledge my selfishness. I’ve always believed in a higher calling too. Always.

We were talking about serving at home as well. Some of us serve so much at home… HAHA…ok, fine… so many of the other people serve at church and do other types of service for God but they neglect serving the house. Our youth leader mentioned one such person at the mamak and he said how many people told the mom that her son was good and then she was like, “yeah… but he’s never home”… or something like, yeah he’s busy being other people’s son. I mean, it’s sad but true.

I thought about it that night when I came home and I tried to type (can’t use pen) down some thoughts and I guess I had a different take on it. I tried explaining it to him (the guy I was talking to) yesterday but it just came out all wrong.

Some people neglect their households but I guess I don’t (I’m at home all the time…) but at the same time, it might not be noticed as serving at home. I’m not extremely helpful but at least my presence can be relied upon but some times it’s seen negatively… sad… but true. I think that would sum it up.

So it depends how one looks at it. We might want to be there for our family but some times it’s easier to be there for other people who aren’t family. Maybe that’s why I find it such a struggle. So there are two sides of the coin.

Then there’s the whole appreciation thing. Would that guy be appreciated if he was there for his mom? Would his mom appreciate him? Or would she belittle him? (i’ve seen it happen… right infront of his friends too.. I have a thing about this… I look at it as a huge no-no)… That’s another reason why people might choose to help others than their own… ‘cos when you try to be a witness at home… it’ll be tough… the challenge is even greater, the disappointment is greater too… not forgetting the fear but then the satisfaction at the end of the day, if God acknowledges your work and you see fruit… then yes… it’s great.

So this guy I was talking to yesterday got me thinking about service. I guess in a way, I could do it but I’ve always felt that I should want to do it and not just because people ask me to do it. Well, guess I’ll have to work it out with God and see how. Again, I think I may know the answer… but we’ll see… so far, the feelings lean more towards serving… I wish it didn’t. Haha.

Then there’s the whole being there for the family thing. I’m too much of that as well…

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Last night I watched A Walk to Remember. What a great movie it is! After all these years, I still love it. Mandy Moore did a superb job and it was just such a pure message. Sure it wasn’t about Jesus but it was about faith and what that is… about how faith can boost one’s confidence and all that… when someone has faith in you… you can move mountains… a beautiful love story and I just loved it… it’s true… we feel so tied down some times with the whole issue of what we think God wants for us … and we restrict ourselves when at the end of the day… God does want us to be happy… and his Commandments were meant for that reason… to make our life easier to live but we don’t see that, do we? Or it’s difficult to.

I remember in Australia, at the Ridley CEL we were discussing about this… the laying down of rules and why does God do it? To restrict us? To make our life unliveable? On the contrary. It is to make it easier for us… It is man who’s put the guilt trip on and some times, it does get out of hand… is this what God wants of us? I guess there’s the whole idea of purpose too. Is this my purpose? But yeah, in A Walk to Remember, it’s really the simple fact that God wants us to be happy. Not the other way round. I realised that when you feel negative vibes, that’s probably from the evil one.

Such a pure love story in that movie… so touching… I brought out the book to read again. Yes, Nicholas Sparks rocks.

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Played Scrabble last night. It was difficult last night… we just didn’t have the right letters every time.

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I’ve been watching South of Nowhere. Well, still in the beginning of the 1st season but man oh man, it’s a story about a family who’s just moved from Ohio to LA and they deal with things like race, religion and sexuality.

So there are lesbian undertones in this show but it’s all subtle… between the teenage girls but it’s nothing serious… it’s there but not that serious… then the family say grace at the table and I suppose that’s meant to say they are a “good Christian family” with “good Christian values”… Then the parents are scared their daughter will become a lesbian and all that… the adopted son faces racial discrimination… from his own race…he’s black but grew up in a white family… race to them is not an issue but to the black kids in his school, it’s a problem…or to the people of LA, it’s a big thing… so it’s like the racial divide is pretty evident there too … I’m not sure what they are trying to address but so far, the show is decent. Not as shocking as the L Word… after watching the L Word, I shouldn’t cringe at the awkward lesbian moments in the South of Nowhere but I still do. I’m such a sucker for shows. It had its funny moments… haha… on the occasion.

It’s a short season too so hurrah for that…

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I’ve been re-watching one of the movies I watched last weekend… one of them about the girl who can’t connect love and sex until she meets a guy (duh!) …it’s an interesting film… I first mentioned that it was rather one-dimensional but on closer viewing… through its veil of explicity… if I can say that, you actually see the many hidden layers there… I think you appreciate it more if you watch it a few times.

I have so far watched it many times and there is more depth now… I think you’re meant to watch it more than once to grasp the themes and what it is trying to address.. it’s like how people think in a roundabout way… this movie is like that… it’s like my brain, I think. hahaha… it isn’t as straightforward… there is the shock factor… at first I thought the sex was so-so and I think it’s ‘cos I’ve been shocked so much that now, it’s like “ho hum”… nudity hahah… but it actually is quite a shocking film in that sense but underneath all that shock, you actually learn to appreciate the characters a bit and you feel for the main character anyway…

Plus, the soundtrack is superb.

I hope to review this film soon. When I find the time…

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I guess that’s it I really wanted to say… my mom thought the thing tonight is from 6-8pm.. she didn’t know the band is called Six2Eight. Ha ha…

Right, I am VERY tired. Help………..I hope its good…

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