• pigduck
• Jun 27,2006
• In: Rants

Extremely Sleepy

It’s 11:10pm and I think I’m going to collapse. Actually I’ve been feeling like this for a couple of days now. It’s really McPheever…

However, you should be oh, so proud of me. I didn’t go to the forums last night and today! Well, not yet anyway. I should though. I’m sure I’m missing on some major bickering. Some times it ain’t Katharine McPhee that keeps me up on my toes but it’s her fans.

Mariah Carey’s forums is on the lull. Rather quiet. Odd, I have to say. But what can I say… not that I am actively involved in that board. I’ve always lurked on that one. She was on Jimmy Kimmel a night ago and apparently, it was the battle of Mariah and her “most knowledgeable” fan and guess who won? Yup, her fan. HAHAHAH… Mariah’s fan knows more than Mariah knows about herself. I haven’t watched it yet but I will.

I was thinking just now… I have been on the FOMM boards for ages. While still in uni, not sure if it was my second or third year but I remember going to our student union to use the computers up in the union library. I checked out the Mariah boards and something must have spurred me to check up the board in the middle of the day. I don’t remember but anyway, I remember replying to a post and then not thinking much of it until it struck me, “wait a second, I didn’t sign on! So how did I post?!” It turned out I had posted using another Mariah fan’s username. I apologised of course. I couldn’t believe there was a Mariah fan who hung out at the boards from Melbourne University. What more at the student union library?? Melbourne seems so long ago *sob*

Well it has been quite an eventful week so far. A rundown?

Since the last time, I posted about myself (which was Wednesday) I went for bible study. It was about… something. I forgot. Definitely the Lord’s prayer… “and forgive us our debts… as we forgive our debtors” - it’s so easy to say but forgiving people is something so difficult. Sigh. I think we always think our sin is not as bad and others who have wronged us should face a graver punishment. We’re stupid lah. We forget we’re not perfect. It was one of those nights at “group therapy” (as my sister calls it) where I talked lots again. Pouring out my confusion for all to soak in. It’s not healthy. I should start shutting up. I did share good news about my dad though…  so praise God for working His magic!

I remember that night just before my dad had his check-up last week. It was a quiet night. I couldn’t explain it but that night, I felt so moved by God. It was a very emotional time. I am not sure what triggered it. All I remember was how my heart was longing for God… Who knows what was up but at the end of it, I asked Him to watch over my dad as he went in for his tests… it was an odd time. Looking back, I think I was just reflecting on God and how He works. I think that was what moved me. 

After bible study, we went to the mamak and surprisingly, I was pretty neutral with the people around me. You know who I’m talking about lah. I was a bit disappointed that my partner in McPhee-ver wasn’t around actually. Couldn’t “discuss” the latest happenings. It was a crucial night that Thursday since Katharine’s bulimia battle became the news of the day.

I was pretty elated that night because of the Katharine news so whoever crossed my path were probably treated to a rare bout of nice-ness from me. I’d like to think that I was friendly that night.

Friday - went to work as usual. OH yeah, was stationed at the mall. It was utter hell although I have to say that luckily the internet was working. I was also treated to lunch by a colleague in another department. ha ha. Yes, there are some good points about working at the mall. I get a free lunch now and again and I get to make friends with people in other departments. Which is good for me, ‘cos it’s like a non-threatening way of making friends. 

Imagine, if I ever did those lunch dating things. What do you call them? lunch speed dates? There’s a term for it. Basically, I’d fail. Whatever it is, I don’t exactly give off good vibes, if you get my drift. I’m not particularly warm or friendly… unless I really really like you. But I’m loyal so once you got my love, you’re pretty much set. Just don’t upset me or cheese me off. Which is rather easy by the way. ANYWAY, I shouldn’t make myself sound so difficult. Even if I am.

It’s 11:40pm! I met up with my friend from NY after work on Friday. Woo! It was great. Since our correspondence with one another was pretty top-notch over the last year and a half, it was great just catching up. Of late, it has been hard to strike up a conversation with me unless it was about Katharine McPhee and/or other celebrities. Isn’t it always though? hahah.

So yes, we just caught up about various things and then we yakked on about celebrities. We were caught in the middle of World Cup wrath, subjected to a few thunderings goal screams … those are when the respective teams score a goal and the whole restaurant shakes. We weren’t at a restaurant. We were at an open air food court and still, I almost got a heart attack from the screams. I’m so not into soccer.

Although out of the blue last night, I decided to check up on Victoria and that’s when I found out Beckham scored that free kick. Pretty much right after he scored too… Good on him… I liked Victoria’s reaction throughout the whole thing. It sounded cute. Her shaking her head and not believing that her husband would be able to score it in. Hehe and then screaming and throwing her hands up in the air. YEAY!

It was a good night all in all. Came back home and started replying things. Didn’t sleep till 5 I think. Woke up for lunch on Saturday. Had it with an old friend from Ridley College who has just quit his job. I was apparently the first to know. We went over to the mall with the sphinx for lunch. I talked quite a bit again about nonsense … then talked about my dad and all that’s been going on over the last few months. It was a nice Saturday catching up with him.

Saturday evening, my good ol’ buddy came back from London. YEAY! Just heard from her. Our 1st topic of conversation was on cockroaches. I know, go figure. It was like, ”hey, I’m home… I saw a cockroach…” and thus it continued, we started exchanging stories about roaches and food, roaches and chairs, roaches and us… yeah… you get it.

Saturday evening saw me eat dinner with my partner in McPheever. I know, can you believe that Katharine McPhee can bring acquaintances closer? I found out that she’s a Spice Girls lover too. That’s awesome… I must like her enough not to get mad at her. Usually, I find other fans threatening. But so far, I’m good with her. I like it in fact. Someone else to join in the quirkiness. But it does get tiring. I was probably burned out after Saturday and that’s probably why I haven’t been catching up on Katharine McPhee… it takes up a lot of energy hanging out with fans. HAHA.

So we had good food at a pretty good bakery in Bangsar. Trust me, it’s a good bakery because their lemon souffles are RM17 excluding tax!! 

We pretty much talked about Katharine McPhee for most of dinner … I found out that she was an avid fan of Ally McBeal too. I loved Ally… all those nights in Melbourne when I would hog the TV for an hour a week just for Ally McBeal. I used to frighten those white guys away with my glares. Yes, I do get possessive over what I like.  

Isn’t it amazing that we have so many things in common? We like Ally McBeal, Spice girls and Katharine McPhee. It must be a middle child thing!

She hung out till past midnight at my house. We had a Katharine McPhee screening and we did some other things that shall remain unmentioned here. I was told not to say anything about it. It’s nothing to be ashamed of but because I respect my acquaintance turned friend, I’ll shut up.

It is interesting that she notices these little Katharine McPhee things that I never did notice. I can’t say what they were but she’s very much into Katharine. Like she’s a fan of Katharine. I am a fan of Katharine but when you’re a fan who hangs out at boards, you tend to have a warped sense of fan-ism. The culture is definitely different. I should know.

When I was a young fan of Mariah’s, I never knew what forums were. So for the most part, I got my news from fan sites which is good… the news they provide is un-interactive, very informative, no slander or anything .. you have your ideas of your artiste and there’s nothing wrong with that… just good old news but when you’re a fan who hangs out at boards, you get thrown so many viewpoints, you’re faced with so many new angles and dimensions that some times, you forget about the product. ie Katharine in this case. Yes, I like Katharine but you tend to want to read what other people think about her… then you want to provide your thoughts, you want to defend your thoughts if they are challenged… it does get overwhelming and time consuming… ’cos it’s a whole new ballgame. It is addictive and definitely the idea of social networking has changed.

I wonder how those Trekkies in the 70s and 80s used to have their little meetings. For them, it was an annual or bi-annual convention where they would meet at a hotel or a hall and discuss their favourite television show for a week. I guess now, we do it on a daily basis. Definitely not intellectual conversations or topics compared to theirs. C’mon, people wrote their thesis and doctorates on Star Trek! I’m not lying! They still do!! They did have alt.net which was the old internet, I suppose, very one dimensional and wordy. Now, we have beautiful graphics and lots of bandwidth issues. It takes forever to load on my computer…yeagh…

I’ll show you some of the stuff tomorrow. Right now, I’m just giving you a run-down.

You get the idea. haha. I have to say that some of the stuff my partner in McPheever pointed out are interesting - for example, I didn’t know that Stuart Weitzman’s website features Katharine’s shoes… it’s these things that make me go, “wow, she’s a fan” and it’s awesome… I learn new things… about Katharine McPhee and not what other fans have to say… it’s different. Hard to explain. Fan-dom is weird, we have hierarchy and nonsense, fights, squabbles, love… it’s like a whole other life. It’s weird how all this happens with the artiste as the main talking point… it’s not like we side-track… ‘cos they are still at the center of our fandom… it’s hard to explain.

I was telling my NY friend how she must think I’m a complete and utter weirdo as my KL friends think of me… but she said, “who’s to judge?” which made me think, “I have such a great friend”… haha… everybody has their own little guilty pleasures. HAaha..

After hanging out with my partner in McPheever, I went back to the boards. Didn’t sleep very early. It wasn’t like many things were happening… but I still didn’t go to bed like I was supposed to.

Woke up for church the next day and almost died there. I was so sleepy!! My partner in MCPheever… gotta give her a new name. Maybe PIM? Hahah… I’m so lame … She messages me… you see? Fans do band together… and we thought of doing something together but we never did at the end.

My famliy had dim sum for lunch. Came home and we played Dynasty Warriors 5! IT was tough and I almost fell asleep playing it. Me and Playstation just don’t mix. We watched the Thief Lord… and it was quite a bad movie in my opinion. My little sister loved it.

Then we went off to pasar malam aka night market where I had soya bean and Carmen had her usual. We headed off to the pet store and saw two cute Mini Pinschers… AWww..

Came home and sat down to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL which is the best! Oh my… my little sister has been raving about it for weeks. I never caught it until yesterday and although the vocals are overly produced, it’s good for little kids ‘cos you can’t hear any flaws and it’s quite nasally and high pitched. Good for kiddy ears. The songs were pretty catchy and it was a great sugary film to end my weekend with. Might I add that there was an extremely pretty girl in High School Musical. I’ll stick pictures up soon. I spent the rest of the night listening to the soundtrack… ooh, pop music at its best. No wonder it’s doing so well in America…

That was my weekend. I hope I didn’t leave out any details… Today I went to work and was stuck in the worst training ever. Our trainer decided to repeat herself three times today since what we had to learn wasn’t all that much so… we just did it over and over again. Repetition sucks. Oops. I should think about that before I open my mouth right?

After work I met up with my NY friend again. hahah… we had a blast. Just hung out for tea before dinner and it was relaxing. It’s amazing that we still can talk so much … I always have a fear that I’m not that interesting… I mean, compared to her, her life is pretty extravagant… hahah… so yeh… 

I talk alot, don’t I?

I came to my room intending to sleep at 10:30…it’s 12:30… oh no…I’ll never recover.

Night!